Day 31: I'm so self involved

January 26, 2010

Hey, I'm actually caught up. Sorry about not finishing up the Sounds of Writing thing either. I know what the albums are, I for some reason just have not written about them yet. I think I like having something on the docket to write about. It gives me a sense of security that if I am desperate for a topic, I could always just write about that.

I started this thing off as an exercise in writing for myself. The purpose was to get me back into the habit of writing everyday, like I used to when I was still in college. I think that so far it is doing the job just fine. I like having something that I have to do again, it gives me a mild sense of purpose. The thing I didn't want this to become was a daily diary though. I can't think of anything more selfish than expecting people to read your inner thoughts. Which I suppose is the entire purpose of writing anyways, so I should probably stop with that line of thought.

On that same topic though, did I really expect to write in something on a daily basis without it turning into a diary? Evidently a month ago I did think that was a possibility. With all that being said though, I now know there is really no way around it. I am going to put some of my personal life into this thing. Kind of like how most writers create characters based on themselves or someone that they know. I suppose that when it comes to writing, everything is connected.

The part that bugs me the most though, is that I have always been the first one to come against anything like this. By this I mean a blog about your own life. Keeping a blog to me always seemed like the most selfish thing you could do. Expecting other people to care about you has always seemed like an incredibly selfish act (Given, on this blog I am technically only writing to myself, so I shouldn't feel that bad). I could be wrong of course. My entire thought process may be completely off base here, it wouldn't be the first time. I suppose all I am trying to say here is that including my personal life into this blog basically makes me a hypocrite. I hate being a hypocrite.

For the time being though, I am going to have to live with being a hypocrite, as I have no intention of stopping this thing. Well, that was a fun post. I am hoping to be more lively tomorrow.