Day 12: Meeting of the minds

January 7, 2010

Tonight was the night of the 'Presentation' with my friends. I would say the meeting lasted around two hours and I think it went well. My two favorite ideas were the ones that they all liked the best. I saved them for the end, because I figured I would want to talk about those for the longest amount of time. It was still kind of weird to be talking about these ideas of mine, since I have never really done that before. I mean, some of these ideas I have had since high school and until tonight, have never seen the light of day.

I suppose I am not surprised by the outcome of the meeting, as I figured it would be one of those two ideas that I would be pursuing after tonight. Though, I am still not sure which one I will be writing. I really think that I should focus on one story and just leave it at that. Writing one script is going to be hard enough, let alone trying to figure out two of them.

The funny thing about tonight is that it was supposed to be a freeing experience, one that let me get all of these ideas off of my chest. In the end though, I think I actually feel more closed off, as if expressing myself left me with a feeling of loss. What the hell is this that I am feeling. I should feel good about narrowing it down to two ideas, but instead I am left with a feeling of confusion. Should I use these two ideas or should I try to think of something new. I think what I am describing is someone with a serious case of commitment issues. I can't even commitment to two separate ideas at the same time. How do I expect myself to be able to write an entire screenplay without feeling like I am being trapped by my own creation?

I think this thing is going to be far more difficult then I originally anticipated. I am going to stop for right now, as I think this is starting to become repetitious and boring. Sorry if this was a lousy read tonight, I'm kind of not in the mood to say anything more. Which after a night of talking about writing, seems a bit odd. More tomorrow.