Day 14: Hello, is anyone there?

January 9, 2010

Is it weird that I am writing this blog as if other people are reading it, when in reality nobody has ever seen it? Given, the reason for me doing this is not for acclaim or recognition, but is it still weird that I write it as if people are there? I know that me even posing these questions to the empty void proves its weirdness, but I thought it might be a healthy question for me to ask anyways.

On a completely unrelated note, it is official that I consume far too much coffee. The last time I had coffee before a couple of hours ago was around eleven o'clock at night on Thursday. I did not have any coffee on Friday and felt fine. When I woke up this morning though, I had one of those headaches that just wouldn't go away. On top of that, I felt like I was coming down with the flu. This as it usually does, bummed me out so I tried to ignore it. Then after work tonight, my co-workers and I went out to the bar for some late night snacking. I wasn't actually going to go originally because of my flu like symptoms, but luckily I changed my mind and decided to go.

When I got to the bar, I originally was going to order beer because it is habit, but instead I ordered a coffee. Literally within ten minutes of drinking the coffee I felt completely fine and back to normal. Still, as I type right now, I feel completely fine with not a smidge of flu like feelings. In a way I am happy that I feel so fine, but in another way, it is kind of depressing. I don't want to be tied down so hard to something like coffee. I don't want a drink to control how I feel all the time. I know that half the people in this country are probably in this same boat as I am with some sort of drug(not that this fact makes it better), but it still kind of sucks that it is true.

Now despite all of my whining, I have no plans to ween myself off of coffee anytime soon. I do not feel like dealing with some sort of withdrawal right now, especially when it is not hurting me in some terrible way. It is really just something that I found interesting and mildly amusing to be perfectly honest. Why did I find it necessary to write about it on this blog? Well, that is another thing all together; and if for some reason somebody is actually reading this entry, well, for that I am truly sorry. I will try much harder next time.