Day 20: Movers and Shakers

January 15, 2010

Ever since I have been in high school I have wanted to move out of state. For whatever reason, I have never done this. Last summer I came very close to finally getting out of here and leaving, but once again, something came up and I didn't. The same thing always happens after I decide to stay. I get bummed at first and then I realize I have probably made the right decision. The only problem is, is that a couple months later I once again want to move away. This past week that same feeling has once again come over me.

Now I am not a relationship person by any stretch of the imagination. I have never once made a commitment to another person and I do not see myself doing it anytime in the near future. With that being said though, I am also not someone who is a total loner. Though I do love being by myself, I also like talking to others on a regular basis. Put all of that together and for the most part, I think I am pretty close to being a prime candidate for moving out of state on my own. I really do feel that it is something that I need to at least try out.

The main problem of course is where would I move out to. For this question, I don't really have an answer. Given, I do have an idea, but nothing even remotely set in stone. The main problem with me moving is not being near any of my friends and family. This part of it sound terrible to me. I love seeing my friends and family on a regular basis and I would dearly miss that part of my life. On the other hand though, that reason is kind of part of the thrill of leaving. I just wonder how I would react to being completely alone for the first time in my life. Would I totally freak out or would I thrive from the freedom. This dominates my thoughts on a daily basis and I often wonder if moving away would give me something legit to write about.

Either way, the thought of moving out of town is always an intriguing idea to me. Come this fall I might be in a totally different place then I am right now, but it is kind of cool to think about. I like it that I don't really have any idea where I might be nine months from. It keeps things continually interesting, which is something that I think everyone needs to have in there life. Planning is fun sometimes, but it is nice to be spontaneous once in a while.