A change is a comin'.

So that job that I was complaining about a couple of posts ago, you know the one that they said I was not right for; well I got it. I actually got a new job in Michigan. I know what your thinking; is that possible? I didn't know there was new jobs in Michigan. Well, there is and I have one. I start it July 9th, so I still have a couple of weeks to chill out and get ready for it. I'm not gonna lie, I'm a bit nervous about the whole thing. I have never had a full time desk job. I am now going to have to deal with office politics and working with women. It is going to be so strange but also very exciting at the same time. Now I'm not sure if this is the case, but I think with this job I might actually be a grown up now. Well, let's hope that I'm wrong on that one. The one thing that I know I am right on though is that a change is a comin'.

Amy Winehouse is pretty wonderful!

So I bought the Amy Winehouse album last week and I can't stop listening to it. She's got this got sultry voice that sounds like she was born in the wrong era. She reminds me a little bit of Stevie Wonder, except that she is female and as far as I know has sight. Anyways, I just thought I should share that with myself, since I'm pretty sure nobody is reading this. Which is of course fine by me.

A door is not closed, it is propted open.

So I was a bit of a whiner after my job interview the other day, I'll admit that. It was all, "I'm pathetic, I will never get a job", type of stuff all day long. It was sad and stupid, but hey, that is me. So that happened and that is that, right? Well, here's the thing. I was going to call them back on Friday, just to follow up to thank them for the experience that they gave me. I figured that anything I went through, was an experience that I did not have prior to the situation. So I called them back today to thank them for all that they put me through, but instead of just saying thank you, I told them that despite their decision, I thought that I could be an asset to their company. This obviously struck a chord with them because within a half hour(or was it an hour, I guess it does not matter), they called me back and said that they were still interested in me. They even said that they would call me back next week to follow up on the job.

This to me is kind of funny. I find it funny because unlike the other day when I was so full of confidence, today I had nothing to lose so it felt almost liberating to give them a call. I called them and told them exactly what was on my mind and it might have actually paid off. So that leaves me with something that a very close friend said to me in regards to the job. She said to me that, "Even though I was down, the situation was less a closed door and more like a door propted open". Which is why I even wrote about this today.

It is weird, sometimes when you think everything thing that you have worked hard for was worth nothing, you can be completely mistaken. It is the reason I have such close friends, they usually know what is good for me better than I do.

Life is sort of funny sometimes.

So today I had a job interview. Well actually it was my third interview for a sales postion at a radio station. These interview's have been going on for over a month now, which meant I was pretty confident about getting the job. (Minor sidenote: Confidence can sometimes be a bad thing, which in my case today proved to be correct). So I go to the interview and meet with the guy who I have been talking to for a while now. Which is cool because he's a real nice guy who I have been getting along great with, hence the third interview.

As we are sitting down in this board room talking, this other guy comes in and wants to meet me. I knew he was coming in, so it is not like it is some big surprise. This guy seems nice as well and we start talking about the job and my personal experiences. This leads to me talking non-stop about all the crap I have done in my life, you know, the blah blah blah stuff that goes on in interviews. After about twenty minutes or so he ask's me if I have any questions, to which they happily answer. Then all of a sudden the new dude starts to talk about how I am more of a relationship person and that they are afraid I will not be able to handle the rejection of the job. I disagree with this assement but it is a fair observation for them to make. Then they tell me that they can tell I have a passion for something else and that they are worried that three months from now I will get bored and move on. This I can't disagree with, but it also leads to the following and obvious conclusion; which is that they are not interested in me.

This decision at first is sort of surprising to me but I'm not really that bummed because the job is not really my cup of tea anyway. The thing that is so annoying and kinda funny about it all is that I am totally bummed out about it. Never in my life have I been so bummed out about not getting something that I didn't want in the first place. So like I said, life is sort of funny sometimes.

I'm kinda retarded.

So it is now Tuesday and the only reason that I have not posted anything since Saturday is because I am retarded. I go to sign in yesterday(or was it Sunday, I don't know) and I can't remember for the life of me what my username is. So being the patient person that I am with computers, I turn it off and decide to figure it out another day. That brings us to twenty minutes ago, which is when I decide to sign on again. Since I am really smart I just assume the problem will fix itself and I will magically remember what my username is and be on my merry way. This is of course not how it works and it takes me a good twenty minutes to figure out that my username is just my email address. What this long and useless story boils down to, is that I am kinda retarded.

I'm finally going to do it!

I am finally joining the 21st century, (or would this be considered the 20th century?) I really don't know. Either way I have a blog to fill up now, somewhere I can write my random thoughts and observations about the little fantasy world that I have created for myself. The name of the blog is in reference to my new motto, "What are you going to do?." It means that I am no longer going to pine over stuff that keeps me down. If you just realize that sometimes things suck, life gets much easier to live. It does not mean that I no longer care about anything, it just means that I am going to desperately try to keep everything in perspective. Life is good, even when things seem like one big suck fest. I like the saying also because it is a rhetorical question, which is why I put the period after the question mark(I'm so clever, I know). The thing that is best about this blog, is that no one is going to read it. Now I am not saying that no one would read it, I am saying that I am not going to tell anyone about it. At least not yet. Anyways, this could be a good time filled with inconsequencial situations and witty banter. I just hope I remember past today that I created it.